Defeated

Do you ever feel as if you have given up on all your hopes and dreams?

Lately that's all I can think about, don't get me wrong I love my husband and children with all my heart but sometimes I feel like there's nothing left at the end of a day for me. I have only had about 3 hours alone since May 28th and I think I going to lose my mind!!! The things that I want are not even in the realm of possibilities at this time, nor would they be what is best for our family but the selfishness in me wants what I want and I want it now!! I feel like all I do is give up or settle for the things that matter to me most.

I feel guilty for even complaining there are so many people in this world who have it far worse than me and I know that my life is very blessed, I guess I'm just having a bad week! Feeling defeated can really take a toll on a person.

Ahh Summer

Summer is a magical time of year for our family, we spend weekends at the lake boating, lazy summer days laying by the pool, bedtimes are a little later than normal and everyone is happy!

I especially love summer because it means that I have extra time for reading. On my nightstand at this moment are two new books; Eat, Pray, Love and Barefoot, I'm almost finished with EPL and plan to start Barefoot tomorrow on the drive to the lake, that's one perk of having a 2 1/2 hour drive every Friday. What are you reading this summer?

Learning More Every Day

Even though school has only been out for 26 days, I've learned a lot about myself. I have discovered that I'm capable of smiling through some very difficult things from the past that I have no control over, I've learned that 15 year old girls change their minds as often as they do their clothes (My step-daughter moved back home after only 22 days), I have learned that I need to slow down and not jump into everything with all my heart because it will get broken, I have found a whole new kind of love and respect for the wonderful man that I married, I have learned to stop and listen to my sons when they speak because in a few short years they will be silent even though they will want to talk to me and I've learned that I can run, the couch to 5K program is going to kick my booty into shape!

One Month

I can't believe that it has been one month since I posted! Then again, yes I can, LOL!! We have been so busy with end of school year activities, vacation, my step-daughter coming for the summer, showing the house and trying to relax that I have not kept up with much of anything in the blog world.

We had an amazing vacation and I can't wait for our July vacation at the lake, the 4th is so much fun in the campground. I have been on a mission to have the tackiest camper at the ground for the 4th, look out Big Lots here I come!

I can't believe that June is half over! Where does the time go? We have lots of fun things planned for this month and in July my baby brother will be home from Iraq for two weeks, I can't wait to see him.

Have a safe summer :)