Today has been an extremely hard day all the way around. I had planned on staying home today and baking Johnson's birthday but the minute I got home from dropping the boys off at school the school called asking if I would please come sub for the 2nd grade. Off I went to the 2nd grade, we were just getting ready to leave for lunch when their teacher came back so I had a two hour window of time before I had to be back to fill in for the secretary. In the meantime I headed to town to buy a baby gift for a teacher at school who is adopting her 5th child. I love baby showers for expecting Moms I think they are the sweetest but I can't even bring myself to attend a shower for an adoptive mom. The only way I know how to describe it is to compare it to someone who has struggled with infertility for years, she has to put a smile on her face for her friend who is expecting while inside her heart is breaking. Please don't take this the wrong way I'm thrilled for the adoptive family, they have 2 biological sons and have adopted 2 of this baby's brothers so it really is a great thing. But I have wanted to adopt for 10 years unfortunately my husband just isn't on board with the idea, we have a very loving and happy family and the financial means to adopt but he just doesn't want anymore children and I do, so days like today are really tough!
Tom has been very sick this week with what we thought was food poisoning but it turns out it is a nasty virus that is making it's way through our family. Please keep our youngest son Jonah in your prayers he has the stomach virus for the 3rd time in 7 weeks, I have bleached every surface in my house I just don't know what else to do. Johnson's birthday is this weekend and I'm so afraid that he will be sick, please say a little prayer that he gets to enjoy his day. You see he was born on his great-grandfather's birthday, he passed away in March, this will be the first time he has to celebrate without his Papaw and he is really upset.
Being plus-size in a size 6 world is very hard. I need a dress for a dinner next weekend and I can't find anything that I like, everything either looks like the mother-of-the-bride or an old lady. I have ordered dresses, visited local boutiques and everything is sleeveless or looks like it's from the 1970's. All I want is a nice dress to wear out to a nice dinner with my husband. I have looked at Neimans, Saks, Nordstroms, Dillards and list goes on, if you have any suggestions please let me know. I apologize for being so down today but it has truly been one of those days.