Thursday, February 3, 2011

It's Been One of Those Days

Today has been an extremely hard day all the way around. I had planned on staying home today and baking Johnson's birthday but the minute I got home from dropping the boys off at school the school called asking if I would please come sub for the 2nd grade. Off I went to the 2nd grade, we were just getting ready to leave for lunch when their teacher came back so I had a two hour window of time before I had to be back to fill in for the secretary. In the meantime I headed to town to buy a baby gift for a teacher at school who is adopting her 5th child. I love baby showers for expecting Moms I think they are the sweetest but I can't even bring myself to attend a shower for an adoptive mom. The only way I know how to describe it is to compare it to someone who has struggled with infertility for years, she has to put a smile on her face for her friend who is expecting while inside her heart is breaking. Please don't take this the wrong way I'm thrilled for the adoptive family, they have 2 biological sons and have adopted 2 of this baby's brothers so it really is a great thing. But I have wanted to adopt for 10 years unfortunately my husband just isn't on board with the idea, we have a very loving and happy family and the financial means to adopt but he just doesn't want anymore children and I do, so days like today are really tough!


Tom has been very sick this week with what we thought was food poisoning but it turns out it is a nasty virus that is making it's way through our family. Please keep our youngest son Jonah in your prayers he has the stomach virus for the 3rd time in 7 weeks, I have bleached every surface in my house I just don't know what else to do. Johnson's birthday is this weekend and I'm so afraid that he will be sick, please say a little prayer that he gets to enjoy his day. You see he was born on his great-grandfather's birthday, he passed away in March, this will be the first time he has to celebrate without his Papaw and he is really upset.


Being plus-size in a size 6 world is very hard. I need a dress for a dinner next weekend and I can't find anything that I like, everything either looks like the mother-of-the-bride or an old lady. I have ordered dresses, visited local boutiques and everything is sleeveless or looks like it's from the 1970's. All I want is a nice dress to wear out to a nice dinner with my husband. I have looked at Neimans, Saks, Nordstroms, Dillards and list goes on, if you have any suggestions please let me know. I apologize for being so down today but it has truly been one of those days.

5 comments:

Jen Watts said...

Oh goodness, so sorry! You have such a big heart Michelle.. Don't be down. We all have our struggles. I think we have a dinner next weekend too.. Is it the same one? I haven't even thought about what to wear.. And I'm guessing I need to find a babysitter. It is so hard to leave Carsyn. Hoping I see you soon and wishing you a better Friday. Hopefully everyone in your household will be on the mend.

Kathy said...

Hope Jonah and Tom are feeling better, and you & Johnson escape the bug this time around!
I am sorry you had a rough day, you always listen to me when I have a day like that and you always make me feel better! Call anytime you need a shoulder...

Hautemama said...

Oh my gosh...I really hope things brighten up for you. I know how hard it can be with the shower situation...it is perfectly fine to feel that way. We are only human.
I really hope the stomach virus goes away soon. Somedays I just feel like putting my whole family in a Lysol bubble.
And..don't even start me on the plus size shopping...I struggle with that daily. I just want to look cute and stylish..is that too much to ask??? Keep your chin up my friend!

The Spicer Family said...

Hi Michelle! I read your comment on my blog yesterday, I think, and wanted you to know I am praying for you. It is very hard to be in the position of wanting to adopt and having your husband not agree. Trust me, I was there all five times we adopted, and am there now. Maybe that sounds weird, but it's true! My only advice is to pray and ask your husband to pray. I let God do the convicting because my husband wouldn't argue with God (well, he would try).

Hugs, and thanks for 'finding' me!

Mrs.B said...

Stay strong in your faith and God will lead your husband to the right path. Will put you on my little list of bloggers I pray for...

take care and Believe!